To My Dearest Walker,
This is an idea I have had in my head for awhile but just didn't know exactly what to do with it until today. So many times I have worried about what you will think when you are grown. I have no idea what is in your head and what is being put in your head every day. I love you as much as I always have and I always will. I didn't choose this path and I never dreamed that thing's would end up this way. One thing I always want you to know is that I may not have made or will make the right decisions but I have always weighed out every choice and done what I thought would be the best thing for you and your brother and sister. Recently I have started having a fear that something may happen to me and you will never know how much I love you. I also worry that the first eight years of your life are carried in my head and if something was to happen to me you would never know about you early childhood years. It may never matter to you but it has mattered to me. After my Mom died there were so many thing's I wondered about my childhood but will never know because she took those memories with her. I doubt I post on here everyday but I wanted a place to go to when I thought of something I wanted to tell you. The first and most important thing for you to know is I will love you forever, like you for always and as long as I am living my baby you will be.
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